FATHER, IT'S ME AGAIN!

Father, it's me again, standing in the midst of you, by myself,
It's a new day and I'm grateful to you,
But yesterday is still on my mind,
And because I know no one can understand me,
I have come to you,
For my only desire you know, is to live for you; but sometimes I fall,
But lord I can't help coming back to you; you alone is my hope and stay,
For there lies no place in this world for me, except in your presence,
So lord please don't leave me by myself, for if you do, I'll be hopeless,
So, I'm here again, asking for another chance, after thousands already given,
And in the midst of my failures and weaknesses,
I know it's me you still love, and I can still hear you call my name,
So father, it's me again,
Standing in the midst of you, by myself.

I'M A PROUD BLACK GIRL!

I'm a proud black girl,
Proud of my skin,
Proud of my history,
Empowered by my ancestor's story,
And driven by my quest to end my people's misery,
Many were called but the chosen was me,
And I don't care what people say,
What I'll be, I'll be,
I'm a proud black girl, and that I'll remain till my dying day!

I'm a proud black girl,
Proud of my personality,
Proud of my entity,
Empowered by the strength of my soul,
And driven by the resilience of my mind and the essence of my goal,
Many were appointed, but the elected was me,
And I don't care what people say,
What I'll be, I'll be,
I'm a proud black girl, and that I'll remain till my dying day!

I WISH I TOOK MY CHANCES II

And everyday with the break of dawn,
I imagine what it would have been like,
Waking up to a beauty like you by my side,
And opening my eyes to a smile like yours in my face;
And when night falls,
I lie awake on my bed, thinking of you by my side,
And then I imagine what it would have felt like to kiss those luscious lips,
As I held those tender hands,
I imagine what it would have felt like hugging you,
As I press your breast against my chest,
I imagine what it would have felt like starring into those starry eyes,
Under the breathe of your love,
I imagine what the fragrance of your skin smell like,
And how beautiful you look in the nudity of your body and heart,
And in the nakedness of your spirit and soul,
But mere fantasies they'll forever be;
Fleeting images they'll remain,
And so all I do is wish that I'd poured my heart to you,
When I had the chance, in the first instance.

BLOOD IN MY TEARS;TEARS IN MY HEART III

As I write this poem, my palms are wet with the sweat of pain, and I can hardly hold unto my pen,
My paper is damp with the tears of my grief, and my words are drenched in my sorrows,
Sometimes I wonder if you tasted disgust when I kissed you,
I wonder if you felt another when I touched you,
I wonder if you saw yourself in another's arms when I hugged you,
I even wonder if you imagined another when you moaned and yelled in ecstasy,
As I thrust you,
Did you hear another's voice when I called you?
Did you feel another's warmth as our bodies touched?
Please tell me if you felt another's lips when I sucked you,
But with each passing night, I pine,
And long for the nights we spent together;
The moments we shared together,
And the days we lived together,
And even though my heart cries as my soul bleeds,
For the hand you dealt me,
My shattered soul yearns for you,
For you are all my heart still desires;
You alone can make me whole,
For within my heart your absence has left a hole,
And I long for the day our hearts will beat as one,
For as long as you're away, in the arms of another,
I'll keep wondering why;
I'll keep asking why;
And all I'll do is cry,
For with every tear I shed, my soul bleeds,
And I've got blood in my tears, and tears in my heart, because of you!

I WISH I TOOK MY CHANCES...

You know, the first time I set my eyes on you,
I was sure you'll be the start of something new,
And when I first heard your voice,
I was convinced with you, my life would be made a new;
You looked like an angel, so pure and perfected,
Your beauty was unblemished, so true and tested,
You were all I needed,
The reason my sorrows receded,
But I lacked the courage to express myself,
And my fright magnified itself,
And so I never told you,

But now that you're gone,
I wish I had said, "I love you",
When I had the chance,
Now that you belong to another,
I wish I overcame my fright in the first instance,
And told you that we belonged together;
That we were made for each other,
And our love was meant forever,
But now I guess it doesn't matter anymore,
For we're now miles apart,
And can never be together,
And while you lay in the arms of another,
I'll be here, sobbing and crying,
Wishing I took my chances...

THERE'S A PLACE...II

So honey, here, take my hands; arise from your groaning,
Get up from your moaning,
It's time to stop the crying,
It's time to quit the sobbing,
For somewhere out there,
Lies a place for you, my dear;
Where love waits with open arms,
To receive you into its arms,
Wipe away your tears,
And jettison your tares and your fears,
For really sweetie, there's a better place for you.

BLOOD IN MY TEARS; TEARS IN MY HEART II

When I found you,
I thought I had found a friend,
I was certain I knew you,
But until you drifted, and left me adrift in this ocean of love,
I realized I never knew you,
You were a stranger in disguise;
When I kissed you,
I was sure I had kissed an angel,
But until you went away,
I realized you were pretense personified;
When I hugged you,
I felt a sense of safety and protection,
But until you walked out that door,
I realized I was living a fairy tale;
When I drew from your sexuality,
I felt a surge of true bond and affection,
As our warm bodies touched and our souls unite,
I was confident I was your first, as you were mine,
I was positive your womb will carry my babies,
But until you left, I realized I was like your numerous partners;
You were an infidel!
Baby, every time I wonder why,
All I do is cry,
And with every tear I shed, my soul bleeds,
And all I've got is blood in my tears, and tears in my heart...
All because of you!

LETTERS TO A DISTANT QUEEN III- WHEN NIGHT FALLS

So every night with the glow of the moon and the stars,
As each day comes to an end,
I fall into my subconscious,
Into a world I desire has no end,
As upon my bed dreams of you fill my head,
My folks and friends tell me to move ahead,
But they are dreams of us, as we unite in sexual intimacy,
As I hope to subject this body to your affectionate supremacy and majesty,
For all my life have I lived in chastity,
Keeping my virginity,
For your precious personality,
And I know that one day,
Our eyes shall meet,
Our hearts shall bond,
And we shall unite in love beyond mortality.
With love,
From your soulmate.